Hi and welcome to my blog!
So – about me – where to start??
Well I’ve had an eating disorder for more than half my life (damn that’s a scary thought!) I started having problems with food, and coping with life in general, as soon as I hit 13. Teenage me, and early 20s me, was NOT fun to be around. I didn’t eat, was depressed, had severe anxiety, self harmed – nothing serious, but obviously still not good. I had suicidal ideation more than a few times, minor PTSD…the list goes on….
Life was pretty dark for a very long time. I was stuck in negative patterns of thought and behaviour. I desperately wanted a way out, wanted to change, but I had no idea where to start.
Thankfully, life is very different now
With a lot help from family, friends, therapists and doctors, I’ve come a long way over the past few years, and whilst it would’ve been great not to have been trapped in the darkness of mental illness to start with, I’m grateful for the lessons it’s taught me.
I’ve met so many inspiring people along the way, many of which I’m lucky to call my friends and family (you’ll never know just how much you, just by being you, have helped me).
Which leads me onto this blog (sort of)
It’s hard to put into words, but I’ll try my best. I used to love writing, but mental illness took that away from me (along with so many other things) I became incapable of writing; the mere thought of putting pen to paper would bring on insane amounts of anxiety. Nothing I wrote was ever good enough. I would look at the words on the page and all I would see was failure. The voice in my head would constantly criticize my pathetic attempts at creativity, would laugh at me for even bothering to try. It became so bad that each attempt at writing would leave me sweaty, light-headed and completed drained.
Now that I’m better, I’ve discovered I have a life! Whereas before I was 100% absorbed in my illness, now I suddenly have all this time, space and energy ( I tell you it came as a shock!) and I want to make the most of it. I hope that my sharing my experiences I will somehow help countless others out there who are suffering in silence. I hope to show that recovery is possible, that mental illness isn’t something to be ashamed of and to chip away at that feeling of loneliness that comes with mental health, because you (whoever you is reading this!) are not alone.
In this blog I will be focusing on mental health – my experiences and my recovery journey, including things I’ve found helpful along the way. But, I don’t want to just focus on that, so I’m also going to write about other topics I’m passionate about, which include sustainability, travel, health and lifestyle – a little bit of everything!
Oh and sometimes I write tiny poems , so I’ll probably share some of those too.
If you ever want to get in touch, drop me a line at firstname.lastname@example.org or find me on Insta at @_violettaly